We spent the summer planning and preparing. The 4th day of school myworld blew up. I was taken by ambulance to the hospital. I had tge signs of having a heart attack. Thankfully it was a stress related panick attack. I spent 4 days in tge hospital. While there had an ovarian cyst rupture. I am much better but it was decided by everyone that i needed to reduce my stress and fast. We enrolled the girls back into public school. Rachel moved back in with her father. I was left to recoverin peace. At church i was scheduled to start teaching the 1--2 grade sunday school class. My helper switched place swith me so she is the teacher and i am the helper.
All of this being said it has not helped my depression. The past 6 weeks have felt very dark and lonely. I packed most of the homeschool stuff away. Roger doesnt want me to sell it or get rid of it; just in case. So every time i go to the deep freezer or go to change over laundry, there sits a sad reminder of what could have been.
A dear friend has been really quite encouraging to me the past couple weeks. She has had me come help her do bulition boards at church. She has been a wonderful sounding board to help work through some of the feelings and emotion of my whole world being ripped from underneath me. I thank God daily for that friendship. I am better but have a long way to go.
To improve my health i need desperately to loose weight. But i have serious motivation issues. Also doing exercise tends to be extra painful with a bum knee and chronic back issues. Ì let my gym membership go as it was just toomuch miney right now. Roger brought me a pedometer home the other day, it is connected to our health insurance. There are cash incentives formeeting preset goals. He gave it tome o Friday , i have started walking everyday slowly but surely. I have not made any of the preset goals but i havent given up yet either. I am going to keep walking!!☺
Someday i might even meet one of their preset goals!! Just getting out of my chair and walking around the block everyday is my first goal. So far i have made 3/5 days.
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